I wonder why every relationship comes so fast and ends so fast.

This time round it makes me feel really hard to accept that it has ended so fast.

I must say I love to think and ponder on every thing that goes past in my life.

I wonder if love, loyalty, faithfulness, perseverance, determination, commitment, sustainability still exist in a person's character.

1 and a half months back I question the guy whom I didn't love whether he was able to sustain everything that I am getting now, the answer was a yes. Then I really wonder why 1 and a half months later the answer changed.

The I love you spoken to me, was spoken to someone else which made me feel very hard to accept it.

Are words of people so cheap these days? Have they ever ponder the consequences of their words before they even speak or make a decision.

So because words from our mouth does not cost a single cent means that they can freely say it and express themselves? I wonder...

Many of the times I do not know how to express how I feel and could only drop it on this blog.

I questioned myself how would I be able to trust the next guy who comes by in my life whether they will be there for me for long time.

Is it fair to hurt others because they suddenly want otherwise for themselves?
I believe all human beings are selfish just to what extend are they selfish?

I must say whoever comes into my life, I really did loved them even more than myself.
That's why at the end of the day I'm always being hurt so badly.
This time I was hurt so badly because I trust that this guy who came by could really take care of his family and    therefore I believe he could take care of me, but it proves me otherwise.
Some times I wonder if he and me are better off as friends, at that point of time I can advise him instead of submerging myself into his problems.

He told me the two girls that he ever loved are hurt badly, then I wonder if he thought about how he has hurt me too?
Those who knew me knew my character, I am always a peacemaker regardless of whatever situation, I dislike quarreling & arguing. I prefer talking sense out.

My heart bleed so badly this time round till the extend that even my friends tried to pick me up but still cannot.

I wonder if he ever realized the mistakes he made that causes everyone to be in so much pain.

Many of the times I really did think for him, I sincerely cared and wants to give him the best but unfortunately he thinks otherwise.
I wonder if he treasures what I tried to provide for him within my means.