Ever hurt so much that nothing helps?
Ever hurt to the extend that you don't even know how to explain how it hurts?
Ever dreamt so badly about whatever you said and you know it is just not whatever your heart actually feels?
Ever want to hear an answer so badly that you have been dreaming of the person coming back to you telling you the answer you have long be waiting for?
I have been experiencing all these lately.
Too much hurt that I use my studies, work and sports to submerge myself.
I guess friends who known me for a long time knows how unhappy or disappointed I am with the situation I am facing.
Yea, I probably too hard on myself, probably I am just following what is suppose to be logically right for me to do instead of following my heart which leads me to the wrong way.
Everyday I feel myself grasping for air, I find it hard to breathe.
Yesterday night, I dreamt of him running back to me trying to get me back, but I refused to accept him at the same time with my heart hesitating.
Well, I guess if I don't face it in my daily life, then my heart cause me to face it when I am dreaming.
You can say I hate these troubled thoughts, troubled problems.
I wonder when all these will be over and I am happy all again, because I just know I am not happy with whatever it is now.