One moment I'm fighting my inner self emotionally and logically,

next moment I'm fighting the war on the external side.

My inner self just don't wanna lose the better, don't wanna appear weak.

Then again my heart knows that I'm actually not that strong as what I think.

Been drinking quite a bit lately to keep myself distracted,

I thought if I drank I could sleep better but apparently this time it is not working.

As much as I am trying to be like a robot to cancel out everything,

I'm just human to feel this way.

The situation is driving me nuts, literally...

It's hurtin it's hurtin me badly...

The more I think the more I feel everything went wrong...

I need an escape... It's crashing on me, I need to do something crazy!