Been crying myself to sleep lately, and I know it's unhealthy.

Life has started being crazy and I can say I can take it no more.

Sometimes it's ok to fall back and remember memories.

It's only normal.

I've got so tired of being so compromising to human beings, 

I've got so tired of caring for others, 

I've got so tired of times when I put others first before myself.

I've come to realise human beings don't appreciate all these.

They take it for granted that things will always last the way they wanna be.

People don't realise others can stop doing what they are doing.

Sometimes I wonder how human beings can be so selfish,

I'm selfish too but I care so much that I hurt myself more than others.

I'd rather be a tin man with no heart.

I'd rather be the emo kid who sits at the corner and speaks to no one.

I'm tired to be happy for just the moment.

Tired of working so hard and try so hard when I don't know where it will go in the end.

Give me a break from being jumpy, active, and noisy.

I wonder if others do realised their actions affects others.

I wonder if people notice I'm just human beings like them who have emotions.

Given a choice, I'd rather live in a country with the poor and needy, 

they'd probably appreciates human being like me more.

Many times I walked pass the MRT station and saw people who are in need, 

I always give them $1 even though they are selling tissue to earn a living.

I realise they appreciate what I'm doing more than the normal human beings do.

I have held myself up so much that I no longer can. 

Sometimes I feel guilty and bad, that I myself is letting myself being down.

With my actions of giving and helping, 

I hope to redeem myself back from giving myself the chance to be down.

It will never be sunny everyday, it rains too, give me a break.

I need it very badly.

Bad enough for a long vacation with no people that I know around me.

I wanna be back like a kid.

The only few people who really care about me is probably my mum, my grandparents.

I really love them all...